some lyrics from "maybe IDK" by jon bellion
"although I guess if I knew tomorrow I guess I wouldn’t need faith I guess if I never fell, I guess I wouldn’t need grace I guess if I knew His plans, I guess He wouldn’t be God
so maybe I don’t know, maybe I don’t know maybe I don’t know, maybe I don’t know but maybe that’s okay maybe that’s okay, maybe that’s okay maybe I don’t know, maybe I don’t know but maybe that’s okay"
I wonder why
my mind is filled with I don't know's
I feel like I can't find myself
I wonder why I fear the things I don't know
wondering what you're thinking about
do I ever cross your mind, do I ever invade your thoughts
I wish you didn't cloud my head as much
slowly I am starting to accept myself for me
not always wondering why I wasn't enough for you
maybe I don't want to know
if I did I wouldn't be living like I am right now
maybe that's okay
my life is a blur recently
is it me & my doing or is it all a lack thereof
all these expectations
if I never fell I wouldn't need grace
I try to hide what I don't like about myself
secretly out of control
pretending it isn't normal
all the towns talking
everybody knows
I don't wanna know
I'm starting to embrace all the things I don't know
and being content in my innocence
knowing I have lost my innocence to many things I wish I could have back
letting my mind be lost to this world
not knowing where I'm going
just passing through
driving along this long abandoned road
in the middle of a memory
letting go & finding myself
who isn't a part of me
I was made new
discovering I was always enough