it's not just a journey
it's a heavy journey
depression
anxiety
dependency
fear
however you describe it
it's heavy
and you hate yourself for having it
yes I just used the word hate, I hate that word too
but it's a pretty damn good description of the emotions these things bring out
cause they sure don't bring out feelings you would otherwise choose
as you can see I also just used the word damn
this might not be one of my most polished works
but I wanna be real with you
depression is scary
anxiety is emotionally exhausting
dependency is so complicated
and fear is irrational
they're all heavy
so
so
heavy
but we don't have to carry them alone.
my love, David, has made that abundantly clear to me
he continually reminds me of Matthew 11:28-30 which reads,
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
it doesn't always make it feel lighter in the moment
but it makes it possible to turn my face away from the darkness and toward the light
where God is and His love overflows
God has blessed me with an incredible man who is upright and patient
David has been God's physical presence for me
he has shown me what God's love is like in this world
it walks beside you through the seasons of joy and the seasons of pain
it doesn't leave you alone in your tears
it remains and returns each and every day
it is quiet and gentle
it speaks truth
it delights in you
and reminds you that today is not the end of your story
eternity is still ahead
the beautiful presence of God in heaven is still waiting for you
your purpose will not be complete until God calls you home
and when He does
your pain will subside
and joy and love will reign supreme forever
all thanks is due to Jesus Christ who carried the weight of all this and more
who experienced every pain there is
to save us, His beloved
& yes it is possible to feel depressed, anxious, dependent, and afraid while also feeling thankful
praising the King within the pain is where I will be
come join my journey